I did not write much this year, and I do not regret that.
In retrospect, this year was tulmultuous for a number of reasons, both personal and on a global scale, and I went to some pretty dark places, especially between February until July.
Aspects about my childhood that I never knew before and about some people I have known since childhood, came to light and shook me at my core.
And in that, there was a great shift. A great, powerful but painful shift.
During this shift, I did not want to post. My energy field was rarely aligned and I didn’t want to put that energy out there.
Even losing access to my Facebook account was somewhat of a blessing because I needed to not put energy out (in the form of words) when I was off balance. Especially not to a bunch of readers that are sensitive to energy.
I was running on about 2-3 hours of sleep per night for over 6 months which was really difficult.
And even though I have been meditating every day since May 2016, on 2 hours sleep and under very tenuous living conditions it seemed to help very little in keeping me aligned.
But maybe it did. Maybe the meditating is what brought the truth to come out. Sometimes awarenss does not feel good but having the awareness allows the seeker to shift, heal and/or clear that reality.
Which is what happened. And I feel much more solid now. There are remnants of that old reality that I am interacting with but I have healed and cleared most of it.
Which is why I am ready to write again.
~ Peace ~